New Blog Chapter!

Evidently, my post-a-day thing failed.. I overestimated my determination/motivation and underestimated my lazy. Good grief. To fight against these horrendous, everlasting characterisitcs of mine, I will keep this post brief, so that I will carry out what I plan to do this afternoon. After finishing this post and posting it, I will turn off the computer and haul what I need to the top floor kitchen and finally T_T start on my sociology paper due Friday.

Actually, I'm going to put here the notes I have for it thus far, because it would amuse my future self (who I hope will have improved her memory and recollection, analysis and connection-making, and general smarty explanation skills - ganbatte).
- self-recognition and realisation of individual self
- social field: ontological knowledge, waves (amplification of emotion/reaction/opinion etc), identity reassurance
- Apollonian vs Dionysian
- blogging and social networks


Now on to the purpose of this blog post [I am actually yelling this title - in my head - but since I haven't the patience to dabble with fonts and such (not so complicated but still fiddly) technical things and won't let myself hand write, colour-code and generally artify my posts.. ¬_¬ this note is longer than the phrase itself = rambling (sorry)].
To further encourage myself to practise writing, for the sake of writing, for the sake of improvement, for the sake of finding something I can be proud of (this is just one of several things I'm "dabbling" with, mostly mentally dabbling with..), I present the following list:

• because I spend hours flitting about the computer, in my posts, I could include links and my reactions to what I've found (also look for 'purrrrrple' on StumbleUpon.com)
• stop talking about the boy, whichever boy it happens to be at the time - it doesn't help with your impression (the impression you're putting forward of yourself), your situation, your frustration (very much), so just do some starjumps and have a chai latte, or make some brownies (with chopped strawberries)
• describe a dress you'd recently designed/thought up
• [bah, I keep switching between first and second person. I think I speak in first person when I'm anywhere between ecstatically happy and mildly content, but anything negatively beyond that becomes second person nagging]
• write that entry on fireflies at Chinsan-zo
• Make a plan to love me [it's a song reference, don't take it too seriously]
• what's happening elsewhere in the world?
• are you eating properly? if not, what would you like to eat and where?

Thank you.

This is the blog of a girl that cried on your shoulder and expects to not have to wait more than 3 days for a reply email, but it's been 2 weeks. You suck. You promised that you would keep in touch. You know that we'd be great friends if you did. You know that even at 22 years old I haven't found my "best friend" yet and that you're probably the closest person to that role, out of all my friends, if only you would keep in touch. I hate-love you.

Also, I'm really freakin hungry. It is half past 2am in Tokyo, I have class at 9am and I want a bicycle to ride across town, eastwards to the sea, as far as I can until I collapse or give in to my hunger and buy an oily bento from the konbini. Or meet some people that want to talk to me and are utterly delightful and we will go to some whacky "outsider's impression of what magic Tokyo holds" kinda place. Why do such mundane nights tend to happen the night before I have an early class? What's more is that I have a full day ahead of me: Japanese 9am -12.10, then I have to get on the train and go for a fieldtrip, to I don't know where, though I do want to go to the computer room on campus (that's only open at night and just 10 minutes' walk away) to print out the instructions, and my day will end when I finaly return to my dorm at 5pm, in time for dinner.

When it's this late, I tend to get complain-y, I think. But watch the "Alex reads Twilight" series on Youtube and you'll think that I'm not that whiny, especially since I've just tipped you off to something LOL funny.

I used to have a still from The Notebook as my desktop background image: it was of the scene where they're laying down in the middle of the road, at night, watching the traffic lights change. But I've now changed it to a photo of Katy Perry, performing on what seems to be a catwalk, wearing a dress where the skirt is a model of a carousel. Forget romance, Prince Charming and "happily ever after". What I need is to remind myself that I can be independent, interesting in my own right and simply amazing (if I just stop spending so much freakin' time on the computer and grow up already).

wah! missed the day-change by a few minutes and I'm too tired for a proper post. sorry. Tomorrow there will be some thoughts on fireflies for you!

This post is going to be a bit of a cheat because, while you might learn a bit about me, I will be hardly saying anything.. I'm sorry, I'm pressed for time. After I post this (that I watched in Gender Studies class today), I must focus on my homework, head out to Paddy's (English conversation club at Waseda), then meet Gwynnie to test out her new oven, I give you this. (At least this way I am keeping up with the a-post-a-day.